i need a direction. i just want to know where i'm going, what i'm heading for. nowadays it seems like whatever i do is a pointless mess. i don't really know why i do them anymore. i knew once, but i've forgotten. so i'm not doing work just because i don't see why i should, or if i do, it's not for me that i do it. i might have pms. although somehow i think that even if that went away, i'd still feel the same way.

i don't want to carry other people's burdens anymore. i'm quite tired. i know, i help. but who's going to help me? i'm just so very tired...