Ohhhhh Sleepless Niiights.

I have an inherited problem. I am a homozygous dominant for the sleepless-nights-due-to-stress gene. I go to bed nice and early at 12am and what happens? I lie there for (haha i just forgot how to spell 'lie'. I typed 'ly' and stared at it for 3 seconds.) 2 hours thinking of how much i have to study and how on top of things everyone else is, clever people like Jen and Viggi, and oh dear, the feeling of being inflicted with a completely inferior intellect envelops my mind, and i cant think of anything else. And after writhing in torment in my pot of delectable degrading thoughts, my mind drifts onto something else equally uselessly irrelavent. My muscles are tense, and my brow furrowed. Then after a while i realise i'm supposed to be sleeping and i let out the breath i'm holding and uncrease my forehead. But after a while it all happens again, for all of 2 hours. 2 whole hours of precious sleep. I wake up the next morning pleasantly finding that i've missed all my morning classes and the realisation that i better get up soon if i dont want to miss the afternoon ones. So as i struggle out of bed, i can feel my eyebags growing by milliinches, dragging my face in gravity's direction. I might need a face-lift after all this. My eyelids want nothing else but to close and remain shut. Dreading the cold outside and the prospect of cramming for bio, i trudge out into the corridor and head for class.

If i'm a failure at university, back up plan is to set up a coffee house. In Holland Village. This is at present very much a dream as i have not the means nor funds. If not, i just want to find an island in the pacific ocean and set up a bed and breakfast and then devote my life to studying the very interesting fauna which happen to be residing in my island of choice. Although i shall have to get married before that cos i want to get married and the chances of finding a husband on such an island is probably nil.

And so i rant in my state of acute depression.

Oh and you! Yes, you. You dont deserve me.