jueves, marzo 02, 2006

Mankali Man.

Mankali Man. says:
I WANT YOU TO BE ONE OF TWO PEOPLE WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT ME

HAHAHAHAHA!!! See what minibean said! So cute. I am very very honoured =). Plus we have decided to become sworn sisters. I suggested swearing over running water then cutting our fingers and letting the blood go into the water ala ancient China style, but we decided it was too morbid for our pure little minds. Thus we settled on eating each other's saliva which in the course of our 7 months in CIC we have already done from sharing so much food. Convenient and relatively undisgusting.

I hate it when i know people who matter to me are angry with me. Pam asked me if i wanted to go to a friend's birthday party with her this Friday. First of all, I am the least 'party' person on earth. I cant socialize with random people and come out all impressively light and frothy, i cant dance to save my life (and where there are africans there will definitely be dancing), and i cant hold my alcohol. So yes, parties turn me off because its not fun for me. And from experience i know that black people are really loud and crazy - not that its a bad thing at all that is... i like them for that! But i cant join them in doing their thing just cause i dont know how. So what am i supposed to do there right? I'll be so bloody uncomfortable. Secondly, it doesnt help that Pam will be the only person i know there. It'll be so wonderfully awkward i dont want to think about it. Plus she'll be feeling bad that i'm awkward and she'll be having that on her mind. So anyway, i told her i dont think i want to go cause i'm scared. So i dont know why, she told her african friends that i dont want to go to the party cos i'm scared of black people. And now they think i'm racist. Uhm, please huh. My entire cell group is african thanks. AND WHY ON EARTH WOULD SOMEONE SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT? If i was racist why on earth would i be your friend?? Its not true that i dont like black people! I like them very much! I get along with them better than i get along with white people. I would go anywhere with Pam and her friends but just not to a party, thank you very much. I will just die of awkwardness. If anyone thinks what i did was wrong please tell me huh... I dont want to be disillusioned.

Bleugh. I hate it. It messes up my soul.