P and P.

WTF. I just wrote one million words and i got directed to another page and lost everything. AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Possesive and Paranoid: two words that describe me. I dont know why i am. I just am. I know i shouldnt be and that it does no good to anyone, not myself, not anybody. BUT I STILL AM. And i hate it so much. It just makes me feel lousy and worried and anxious and so so bloody helpless. Omg i feel like scratching someone. Ugh!!! I'm trying to make myself not be those things and i'm telling myself that it's okay, everything's the same, it's just your imagination driving you to despair, dont worry about it cos its not true. But i cant help thinking What if it is true? What if youre being a fool and an idealist and youre telling yourself nothing is happening when its really happening right in front of your nose and youre too naive to see it? OMG, VERA!!! -smacksmack What happened to Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding? Why are you so quick to lose your faith? DIDNT WE ALREADY DISCUSS THIS?? Didnt we agree to trust in God's plan? You of little faith. How can God work in your life when you doubt His intentions even in areas as trivial as this? Hokay. I think that was my concience. Otherwise i'm schizophrenic. But i dont think so. Another angsty evening. Bleaugh. I have to stop this or i will go into regression and become a whiny, emotional teenager again and then slowly morph into an amoeba.

ANONYMOUS TAN CHENG HEE

OHO. My cute minibean has something rahter exciting happening on her blog: a flamer. Or rather flamers. They are rather lame flamers too i must say, grasping at straws just to find something hurtful to say. They said she took down her photo links to stop pple for seeing how multicultural her friends are. OMG HOW STUPID CAN ONE GET EH?? It's her own blog man! She can do whatever she wants with it including post naked pictures ala Miss SPG, and who has the right to judge that? If you dont like something, announce it on your blog, yell it to the world on the ever available world wide web. But dont be an asshole and flame someone on their space. Go dirty your own. Ugh. Those people make me sick. I bet they think theyre cool. Yucks. I also can bet Anonymous "Tan Cheng Hee" is quite the lion-hearted individual. And that Fuckface is, indeed, a fuckface. (Who on earth calls themself FUCKFACE?! Oh the stupidity. Tsk.) I still think the "Anonymous Tan Cheng Hee" thing is bloody funny though. Go Bean's friend Zihua! Oho. I have decided not to be an angsty ranting teenage annoyant anymore. I figured that if God does something, he really must have a plan for something bigger and he will go through with it. So i'm going to wait and see what it is, and not torment myself with my exploding emotions and rather futile uhm thoughts. I'm going to trust that God has something good in store for me. So yeay. I can concentrate on my work now. And hopefully not think of playstation2. This is the aforementioned swirly thingthing. The one that "Rosie" was not impressed with.

Andrea and I at the formal. I unfortunately only have one picture of myself and this is it. HAHA.

The Angsty Teenage Yell

@(&)(*%#^$#*@))$@^%&!!!!! I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!! I HATE BEING IN LOVE. I HATE NOT KNOWING. I HATE WISHING AND HOPING AND DREAMING. AND I HATE THE FACT I'M GOING MAD BECAUSE OF THIS. I HATE IT!!! -STOMPSTOMPSTOMP I shall be an angsty teenager for a while and yell about the weirdness i feel. I FEEL LIKE I'M FIFTEEN AGAIN! I feel like the world is tipping upsidedown and that this could be the start of something new and good and exciting. But i cant help thinking what if its NOT?! and that i'm just deceiving myself. I will honestly go mad and die. And i'm thinking to myself "This is dangerous stuff man." and i'm scared. But i'm so excited too! I just need things to happen cos waiting for SOMETHING to happen is slaughtering me slowly and painfully and i'm going BONKERS! AAARRRGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!! PFFT! NCWOUCBWREFB;KSJFBSDB;KWERWOEFB;KJSDBC!!!! Alrighty. I feel slightly better. Poor Bean has been getting this the whole day. And Leon has been getting a bit too (but not that much. i was afraid he'd freak out and block me on msn or something). Leon is a good guy i must say. I miss him and i'm glad i talked to him on msn. I went to church at 7.30pm today for this talk called "Being a Woman of Excellence". I was invited by this lady from church called Jennifer. I might join her cell too!

All i can say about the formal is: I COULD HAVE DANCED ALL NIGHT. Yes, i could have. Even if i cant dance for anything. And i cant stop thinking about it too. I need to see again! I'M SURE I WONT SURVIVE IF I DONT! I know mummy, being very kaypoh, is reading this. So thats all i'm going to say! hahahaha. Angmohs have the dua-est nehs on earth. AIYO. SERIOUSLY. At the formal, dua nehs everywhere. And everyone looked so nice and pretty/handsome. And hooray for playstation2.

Forbidden nap plus dream.

I just had a little forbidden nap which did not end very well at all, seeing as i jerked awake at the thought of being late for my physics test. A funnaye little dream came with the nap, which added to my raging hormones on account of my period, made me very sentimental and homesick. It didnt help that Michael Buble's Home came on the computer. So I finished my Vanilla Swiss Almond Haagen-Dazs ice cream in an emotional mania and happily felt sick and thirsty after that. This was the dream: The earliest i remember into the dream was being with Olie in a funny place for homeless people to spend the nights, so it was a room full of sleeping people on matresses draped with extensive amounts of blanket. It wasnt that Olie and I were homeless or anything. We were sort of waiting for Papa and Mummy to finish work or something, and so decided to take a nap there. (Dont ask me why man. I wasnt concious.) Then sometime later, this family came in, the dad and the mum and three kids. So being the nice people we are, Olie and I scooched over to give them space. The thing that struck me about this family was that they were very well dressed, like, you could tell they were rich people. After a while, though, they somehow morphed into my beloved Jessie, Barny and Ruth. I was pleasantly surprised and demanded to know why they were sleeping here because, did they not have a home? When they said they hadnt eaten since yesterday, Olie and I decided to go get them food with our student cards (i dunno how come olie had a student card but she did). And i distinctly remembered Barny saying he wanted beef with a lot of nice gravy. Okay then at this point some stuff happened which i cant remember, but we landed up behind some chinese restaurants and found some trucks full of raw naked chickens (dead) and decided that we should steal one and cook it. (Who can cook? NOT ME!) But the problem was that there were chefs slacking and talking next to the truckload of chicken so we didnt know what to do. So i walked around and ended up in a chinese medicine shop far away, looking for food. Then iheard someone shouting behind me. It was mother. And she said something like do you know what your meimei has been up to while you were gone?? So i galloped back to see what kind of trouble mei got herself into and found her paying for the chicken. I breathlessly told her eh! mummy knows leh! Then she turned around, with tears in her eyes and said yah i know. Then three of us walked back together to the mattress room and mummy didnt even scold us. I miss meimei and mum and papa veryveryveryvery much.

Bitching about Rosie.

This is a little grinning Grinz.

Zhuping: Hello choopeng! I miss you. Bean: Hokay! guesswhoiam: Uhm. A rather retarded person? HOOHOOHOO I am quite happy now! I went to Lime Ridge with my roomie Mahshad and bought my dress for the formal today! =) The stuff on it looks deceptively silver. Its not. Its gold.

I have concluded from this shopping trip that i'm horrendously skinny. Everyone says eat more but hello! I DO EAT ALOT! Its like as hard as losing weight please. And please dont say i'm lucky because i have no fat as mother and the woman from the Guess? shop said. Uhmmmm... I'd rather have fat then look like an alien. But no matter. If this is the way God made me, then this way i shall be content to be.

Mahshad and I have a common dislike for this one girl on our floor. (We shall call her Rosie for the purpose of this bitching.) Rosie annoys the bajeezers out of me please... she comes into our room asking mahshad for a favour and i point out to her the pretty new spiral thingything we bought to hang up in our room (which we are very proud of by the way. we also bought grass that can be grown in a paper bag. how cool is that. that project shall be reserved for after the holidays to prevent it frm dying of thirst while we are happily partying.) And Rosie immediately chimes, " Oh i have that, but mine's green," and looks at us like we are stupid for getting something she thought of getting first, and an unpainted one at that. "You can get it from dollar store." Uhm okay so!? So i'm like oh really? We got it for $9.99. She gaffaaws loudly and smiles her superior smile. Eeyer so annoying!

Okay i am sleepy.

HARRY POTTER!!!!!

HARRY POTTER IS AWESOME!!! I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH!
I am a rather happy person just now. I just watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire with Amy, Brian and Amy's friend and i'm so excited!!! OH LALALALALALA!!!! I think this is the best movie of the four. =)
-hophophophophophop.




















SEE?! SO HANDSOME. -faints.




















I shall now go to bed. I'm tired.

Fluff

OHO i forgot to say. As i was walking in the Winter Wonderland, i was trying to suck in passing clumps of fluffy snow. =) I bet i looked funny. I did actually manage to eat a fluff.

That Mendel Person

Jessie:
Aiyo i also want to faster come back please. I'm running home the moment i can. No worries. And YEAY! i can bathe in Hong Kong i think.

IT'S FLURRYING!!! I'M SO HAPPY! I was walking home just now from Mills Library (where i was, of course, very dilligently studying for friday's bio test. stupid Mendel person. *^&$%#$) and i was all wide-eyed and smiley and feeling like a penguin at sentosa. I bet i looked retarded next to everyone else who seemed to be hurrying to get out of the blasted cold. And it was cold too, but i was wearing two coats and a sweater plus gloves so yay. Actually it snowed a little bit in the afternoon as well, and a bit in the morning at 9. The afternoon snowfall was not so fluffy because it was icy stuff, not soft snowflakes, but i was still elated cos it was still snow, and it made me forget to go to chem lab while i was prancing about in it. heh. But after a while more started coming down, and harder too. Then it was not so fun anymore because they started smacking me very hard so that i had to bend my head and walk and try to prevent some cheekopek ice um cubes from getting into my shirt. And then i remembered about my chem lab. Faster run! As for this morning's snow, everyone in the building saw it except me. Why? Because there was a fire drill at 9am and i slept right through it. =)

The reason why i slept to soundly, besides the fact that i'm a sound sleeper, is because... i slept at 4.30am. heh. I know i know, Pa. And Ma. And probably Er. And Bean. But its because i was doing my pre test quiz! And if i get 80% and above i get 2% of my test FREE! I think. I really wouldnt have done it but for Pam (cos i'm lazy and 2% doesnt seem like very much). She came charging into my room at 3am, demanding that i do it. *imagine African accent* "What's wrong with you Vera! Dont be so lazy! Its free marks! Get up move your lazy bum!" And then proceeded to switch on my laptop. "Why is it taking so long? You came all the way from Asia with this crappy computer??" Haha. Good old funny Pam. She's African and so amusing. So we did mine and scored 95%. Clapclapclap. Team effort. Then we did hers but all three times, we couldnt get 80%. Pooters. Team effort and all. I felt so bad! Like, i didnt even want to do mine but we got me a 95, and she actually cared to do it (and even made sure it do it for my own good) and we couldnt even get 80. I dont know why, but the questions were somehow harder and sneakier. Meh. =(

A few nights ago i had a rather weird dream. I was at this event at some hotel with people i knew (but who dont necessarily know each other). Caleb was there, Zhuping whom i was immensely happy to see, and various family members plus other friends. There was this one part where a sneaky looking Chinaman picked up my slippers which were happily dozing on the floor i dont know why, smelled them, gave a satisfied look, and put them into his pocket. I was horrified! My Teva slippers! Mineminemineimine!!! So i yelled, "Eh! Mine!" and he promptly turned and ran. Of course i gave chase, meaning to karate chop him if i caught him. He ran to this window, threw my slippers out, spit after it, and somehow fell out of the window in his enthusiasm. I felt vaguely guilty because i was just thinking, "I hope you fall out!", when i saw him spit. Feeling weirded, i ran to tell Caleb the sensational news but saw him wrestling or dunno doing what hankypanky with one of my friends so i couldnt. Then i woke up.

I shall end with a quote by Mr. Maracle.

"Chitin is pronounced 'khai-tin'. NOT 'chee-tin', like the activity some people engage in on tests."

Whahahahhaha!

The Puffbean.

Cutting roast beef with a plastic knife is rather futile. Hmph. My dinner is going nowhere. I went to Commons to get food, hoping that the magic of food would lift my black mood (oho! we see here that the sentence rhymes!). But no, it caused me more annoyance. Oh Joy. Oh hooray. Look I just cut through the styrofoam box in my attempts to cut the dead cooked cow and now there's gravy on my anthro proposal. I want to go homeeeeee. (39 more days, for your information.)

Today is Whiny Day. Let's whine together. Whineeeee whineee whineeeeeeeee.

I talked to Beany today on MSN and HAHAHAHA her nick was "Maciej Mizerski and the Half Blood Teochew". Maciej Mizerski is the, according to her, super hot and sexy foreign math prof in UBC whom she wants to marry. And the half blood Teochew is her. HAHA. So cute la this Miss Bean. Anyway, apparently she came home at 3am last night cos she was at her friend's house doing silly stuff. When i webcammed her at three the following afternoon, she and just woken up, teeth still unbrushed, and looking nice and puffy.
















She asked me to do a Biantai face but i didnt know how. So here you see a rather puzzled Yang instead.

I have been rather busy this past week and will be even busier this coming week so i dont think i'll have the time to blog anything much other than a short whine or something.

Plus i've given up on my roast beef dinner. It doesnt taste good enough to justify my efforts at hacking away at it. I wish Dogbird Poh (Bean: Dogbert Po) was here. He'd even finish the vegetables.

And also: I LOVE YOU MUMMY AND PAPA!!!!! :)

Pet Peeve.

Mother:
Means what, Mother? (About your comment.)

Zhuping:
My ex! Tommy. Dont you remember, Zhuping dear? Haha. ;)

Nash:
I will, once i figure out how to okay?

Belly:
See you, Dingers!!!

Okay. Now for a random muse. When i was in Columbia Int. College (which was FULL of national Chinese students, by the way), all of them thought that i was this super "Angmoh Pai" person. And they would all complain about how lucky the Singaporeans are to have English as a first language, because TOEFL is just killing them, and for all their superior intellect they find it hard to get into university. They almost faint when they hear my TOEFL score (which to me is not that good so i shall not say heh heh. i guess it's not bad, but i did expect better. oho! but i shall announce MiniBean's TOEFL score though. It's wicked! Miss Beansie got a fantabulous, shining, glorious 290/300. Dont look down on my Bean man! She's small but mighty. Heh.) They also dont believe that i can speak Mandarin. I always gasp indignantly and inform them that i have learnt the language for 10 years. But of course, in comparison to their standard of guo yu, i sound like a blabbering idiot, so i might as well tell them i cant speak it. (They always laugh when i try, so...) I shall stick to Speak Good English then.

But when i'm in Mac, people always assume i'm an ESL (English as Second Language), and they always exclaim when i tell them i'm from Singapore,"Oh! But you speak excellent English!" Yes, i know, dummy! Thats because English is our first language in my Singapura-the-little-sunny-island-in-the-sea!!! Bloody annoying, these stereotyping, ignorant Angmohs. There was this one time i was in the common room on my floor watching Seinfeld (some sitcom). This guy asked me,"Do they show Seinfeld in Singapore?" When i told him yes i think so, he happily asked me,"Oh. Do they translate it to Singaporean then?"

Oh, these ignorant people. And they say North America is great. Tssk. North America is annoying.

Aw, screw ya'll.

HAHA my physics teacher is damn funny. His name is Ken Sills and even though he's not handsome, i think he's hot cos he's SO FUNNY. Today in physics he was trying to illustrate movement in two-dimensions... so he was like, "Okay, pretend i'm a space shuttle and i want to move forward in the x-axis direction. So i activate my forward thrusters. Psst!" and totters forward like an R2D2. Then when the whole class starts giggling, he looks up and smiles with one brow raised. "Aw, screw ya'll." HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH AIYO SO FUNNY LA!

Queen of the Glam Squad.

Zhuping:
Yes, link me please.

Nash:
My ex.

Bean:
Don't pray pray ah Bean. I put your shampoo pic then you know.

OKAY NOW IT'S TIME FOR REVENGE ON THE BEAN! HOHOHO.
I do think i have more than 20 silly pictures... xD




































































































































Okay. This is all for the time being. Cos i have to study for math test and, i must say, this is time consuming. BUT this is not all!!! I have MORE... heh heh heh.

Oho! I had a little adventure last night.
I woke up at 3am in the morning last nightto go pee. And usually i dont bother locking the door at that hour cos no one is around. And because i didnt lock my door, i didnt bring my keys. I seem to think that was smart at that moment especially since i wouldnt have to unlock the door when i came back again, and just tumble back into bed. But, haha, no. I came back and the door had locked itself behind me.
And I said, "Oh, F**k."
Luckily Ankita went into the bathroom at that moment so i went and borrowed her phone to call the service centre. So i went out into the night in my skinny pants and slippers and Beany's UBC jacket feeling very sorry for myself. (In retrospect, thank God i didnt decide to wear my FBT shorts to sleep man. I was contemplating hard about whether or not i should bother changing and i decided, no, its too troubesome.) So i trotted down to Commons to get the lock out key, and haha!! there were three guys playing soccer (at 3am, yes) outside Commons and one of them was handsome Ryan-from-my-floor. Haha. He asked me what i was doing out so late, and i told him, feeling stupid, that i locked myself out. Heh. But then again, it was pleasant to see a familiar face being alone at 3 am. After that all went well, except that i couldnt sleep for quite a while after that. I think i fell asleep at 5 or something. Um, dont ask what time i got up.

All You Need is Love.

You'd think that people would've had enough of silly love songs.
But i look around me and i see, it isnt so.
Love lifts us up where we belong, where eagles fly on a mountain high
Love makes us out like we are fools, throw our lives away for one happy day.
How wonderful life is, now you're in the world.

=) Now this song makes me happy.

Vera Yang Bim Bo

Nash:
HAHAHAHAHAHA. DAMN FUNNY RIGHT?? I almost died while doing this post. But i couldnt quite die cos my roommate was sleeping and i couldnt roll around and laugh.

Uncle Phua:
HHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! CALEB HUANG!!! Ah Pek Huang.

HAHA. So funny. Look what Zhuping wrote on his blog:

this is an official blog annoucement...
many of us fairfield people might know her...
she goes by the full name
Vera Yang Bim Bo....
she now has a new blog!!*hooray hurrah hooohooo etcetc.*
it's in this link hurry click on it!!!

Vera Yang Bim Bo. WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Oho!!! It's a new day! Coundown now becomes 45days. :)

The Silly Billies. Oh Happy Days.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
I shant say who we shall laugh at.

The Beeyootifool New Template

Now, isn't my new template nice??! It's green!!! And its all thanks to my Clever Beansie! THAAAAAANK YOOOOOOOO BEAN!!!!
And i am rather annoyed at the toilet paper in the bathroom. It's only 1 ply and is ripped to shreds when i pull. How inconvenient.

Clever Bean!

I say.. this is the clever Bean, and I would like to tell everybody that it was a big pain in the butt arranging Vera's blog. I didn't design it of course but after putting the code in I had to rearrange a million and one things and adjust things by the pixel, so let your eyes absorb the soothing colour of green while i sit back and "green" at my own work in the greatest satisfaction of the day.

And Vera loves Tom please. HEH.














This is a little forlorn Jessica.

Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day i'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Chorus:
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Chorus

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Chorus

This is the perfect love song, i think. :) Come what may, I will love you.
Two people sharing a love that endures all. Is there such a thing? Well i would certainly like to think so.
Oh dear. Am i actually a hopeless romantic??? Hoho. How amusing.

Brought to You by Some Berries and a Hairy Fruit.

Brought to you by some berries and a hairy fruit. That's what was on the label of the bottle of the raspberry and kiwi flavoured Fruitopia i bought. Hahaha i think it's so cute.

I just officially emptied my bank account today. $5.85 left. Luckily Papa's genius has saved my ass from begging and borrowing this month. He held $100 bucks hostage when he gave me my allowance at the beginning of this year. He's only going to release it in the middle of the month though. Truly, when you get older you (are most likely to) get wiser. I would have spent it on a christmas present too, and be Really Officially Broke. I bought two sweaters from Tommy Hilfiger today. And i'm happy about them =). One is Mother's christmas present and the other is mine. I love Tommy Hilfiger! Something about that preppy style just draws me and makes me feel greedy, and i feel like buying everything in the store. Wheezewheeze.

I was just whining to Mahshad, my roomie, that 21 Dec is SO BLOODY FAR AWAY. I expect time will pass very quickly, as Mahshad so sensibly informed me. (Mahshad always seems very amused at me, i dont know why.) But it still does seem so very far away though, when you look at the calendar. It's two whole pages of little boxes away. And my countdown still says 46days. I can't help whining. I really want to get home. So many wonderful images of Singapore and my family and Christmas keeps happily prancing around in my mind, and i'm so overwhelmed that i can barely study.

It's all a gigantuous blob of rolling, tumbling, bubbling, barely suppressable, suffocating emotions.

See thats what i was thinking about while i was practicing Chain Rule. I actually wrote this down on my foolscap paper so i wont forget. heh.

Oho. Something amusing. This brown guy on my floor called Hemant thought my name was Mahshad all up till yesterday night when he was enlightened by other people on my floor. And also, he thought i was 12. :( Jennifer thought i was 14, and some super smart Asian kid who made it to University at that tender young age.

DO I REALLY LOOK YOUNGER THAN I AM? Everyone seems to think so. Well, I dont!!! Hmph!

Today was a horrendously windy day. I woke up to the magnificent display of scary thunderbolts against an opaque white sky accompanied by random cracks of thunder. Thus i reasoned that since my umbrella broke and i had no cash on me to take a cab, it made no sense to go to church. Trotting to the bus stop, getting soaked on the way, risking death by lightning, arriving late, listening to half a sermon, and then getting even more soaked on the way home did not seem like good sense at all. So i plonked back into my pillows and went back to sleep.

When i woke up again and finally decided to actually brush my teeth, the power in the building went out. Hooray. I wanted to go to Lime Ridge, but of course the elevators had died during the power failure so i had to scuttle down 11 flights of stairs in my kitten heels and got blasted by the wind when i came out. Haiyo. The wind almost blew me away twice. And there were times where i had to trot most unglamorously because the wind was pushing me. heh. Not nice weather at all.

The Flasher.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA BEANY WANTS TO BE A PROFESSIONAL FLASHER. She just confessed her secret ambition to me and provided a preview. Go Bean! HAHA. So cute she. She looks like a wrinkled peanut when she does her displeased face.
Anyway, i was announcing the birth of my blog to Melvin Chay and he said he thinks i wouldnt be able to keep this up for long.

Weeks more says:
but i think yr blog wont last for long. ha
BROUGHT TO YOU BY SOME BERRIES AND A HAIRY FRUIT. says:
hoi! i bet i will lor!!
Weeks more says:
dunno. just have this weird feeling abt this. maybe cuz u are vera siao ding dong
sounds like very siao ding dong

Gasp! I can la!!! smack you melvin chay! My blog will live long! Long live my blog! Vive la Vera's Blog! Haha.
Bean and i have huge amounts of fun webcamming each other. She is my major laughter supplier. Yeay for Beans! Here's an example of our madcap moments. Haha.



















Look at my ingenious, albeit unglamorous, way of holding my microphone
Aaaaaaannnd...
LOOK AT BEANSIE'S HAIR hahahahhahaha!!!

Okay. Embarassing moments. But someday we'll look back and laugh (and deny that it's us).
While i was diligently studying calculus in the study room, one gazillion thoughts were pushing their way into my brain while i struggled from problem to problem. And guess what i did. I actually took notes of my irrelavent thoughts so that i can remember and write them down. heh. How silly.

However, it is also 2.30am now and i better get into bed in the near future or else i'm not going to get up in time for church tomorrow. My random thoughts will have to wait then.

HHHWHINEEEE.

I WANT TO GO HOME NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW.

The Big, Jolly, Powerful Man.

Something i learnt in Karate today:
Whatever time you spend doing something, ask yourself: Could i have done it better? If the answer is yes, then you're cheating yourself.
Use your time to the max.

The wise words of my Sinseh. A big, jolly, powerful, 240 pound man. And veryvery nice.














This is a picture of the afore mentioned flies. :) HAHA.

Half a half-hearted smile?

I'm very sad now. Why wont you even look?
How annoying you are. Is it even HARD to look??
One smile? Of acknowledgement, even? Half a smile?
But no. You won't care even if i punched you and STAMPED ON YOUR FOOT!
You BLOCKHEAD. hmph.

Aside, it must be amusing to have kids and watch them grow up into great big people and watch as they fall in love. (right ma and pa, you kaypo people. i know youre reading this.) Does one feel proud? or excited? or worried? I wonder. I suppose i wont know till i become one. But i know it must be interesting.

For me it felt weird for parents to be in touch with my love life. Somehow my love life is a Friend's domain to me. But that is slowly changing. Oh my. Could this be a sign that i'm growing up then? ( I dont really want to though) I used to have this primary school phobia of telling people who i liked. Like i wouldn't even confide in a good friend or aanything. I guess i just thought that if my secret got out i would die of shame or some shit. HAHA. Oh silly days. That all changed in Sec.3 when IvaneChewy and I traded secrets in a mad whirlwind moment. WHAHAHHAA. Then i realised that talking about it wasnt so bad after all. HAHA. The Young and Naive.

Drifts of leaves and a floaty skirt. Prospects of Christmas.

HAHA!! I'm still excited about my blog. Imagine the possibilities! The thing is though, that when ever i sit down to actually type something, nothing comes to mind. But when i'm trying to concentrate in chem lecture, Prof. Vargas-Baca's Julien the third (thats the "king" from Madagascar) accent drives my mind to wander and i think of such marvelous and colourful things to write. But then after that i cannot remember when i want to write them here. hmph.

Another thing that makes me hop in excitement is thaaaaatt... I'M GOING HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!! OH LLALALALALLALALALAAAAAAAAA!!! YYEAY! I even made a countdown and pinned it on my board. It's currently at 48 days. I bet this will be the BEST christmas EVER! And i have reasons to support my hypothesis:

• I'm going HOME after (only) 3 months all alone in this silly place
• It's Christmas in Singapore with my family :):)
• We're going to Fraser's Hill
• I'm going to see EVERYONE from school cos there'll be NO MORE SCHOOL in S'pore
• KAIWEN AND KAIREN ARE COMING HOME FOR CHRISTMAS
• I get to see Singapore, which in my opinion, is the best city in the world
• I'm going to see The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe with LohPingPang. I'm so happy i'm going to see him cos someone just refused to sneak out of Nerd World to see me this summer when i was home.
• The Tham side Christmas party is at Eryiyi's house! :):):):):) This also means: GOOD FOOD. And duh, good company.
• I get to kiss doggo again. Even though i agree he smells, pa.
• And of course, i miss Pa and Mummy SO MUCH. (I am quite the daddy's girl-slash-mummy's girl.)
• AAAAAAAAAnd last but not least certainly, is AM THE GLORIOUS AGE OF 18 NOW. Therefore i can drink, club, smoke, get married etcetc all legally now. (Not that i want to do all that stuff la. But the freedom is exhilarating. Thats all.)

Now, is doggo. :) HAHA. So sweet eh.

Today is a bright, shiny, redgoldyellowy fall day. And the best thing is: IT'S NOT EVEN COLD! So i wore my nice big, floaty green and white skirt out, which was somewhat a mistake cos, even though it wasnt cold, it was WINDY. And being big and floaty, it blew here and there with the wind and sometimes up. heh. I love the skirt nonetheless.

Bean told me yesterday that in her residence the people living in the basement are asking for a screen on their windows, not to keep out flies, but to keep out squirrels! How odd is that la! Apparently they come in and steal food and are very fierce. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! There are Mad squirrels in British Columbia. I just have to add this: Screens dont actually deter all flies. At the start of Fall, squadrons and multitudes and herds and hordes of flies suddenly decided that this was their time to appear out of nowhere and fly into the room through the screen, and die all over the place. It was bloody gross. Imagine dead flies all over the heater, the table, the bed, in my cup, etc. Bleah. Well, what can i say. It's Canada. It's a strange place. Just like how there are no dustbins around when you need them in public places.

UH OH. Bio tutorial is NOW! diediedie.

The Number One One

HOHO!!! I HAVE A BLOG NOW!!! THIS IS WHERE I SHALL BLABBER MY SCATTERED RAMDOM THOUGHTS TO GET THEM OUT OF MY SYSTEM. HOW SO VERY EXCITING! well... i think so at any rate.

Problem: I usually can't decide how to write stuff... and so they often come out all funny. Okay... i just did an example of that. (i told you this was going to be random)

Okay anyway. Ms Bean Tey is pestering me to no end to hurry up and post something so that she can kaypo and see what my blog looks like.

Note: Bean is also the one who is going to design my blog template and everything. Hooray! I love Bean. She threatens to do one with beans all over. HAHA. minibean. This also means that if my blog looks weird its her fault and hers only. heh.

Oh and i also ought to mention: ZhuPing came up with my blog title. He said put that and put some kinky skin. siao.
Hokay. I think i have written enough. i shall now observe my work posted on the World Wide Web.
And then go to bed lest i never awake te next morning. meep.

(Clockwise from left) Olie, Barn, Jess, Loogen. The FiveMinusOnes.

OHO! BEHOLD I CAN PUT PICTURES! okay. i'm ancient yes i know. (dont laugh, Bean!)

Anyhow... these are some people i really miss. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! SO SO SO MUCH! They are the FiveMinusOnes. The minus one is me la. HAHAHHAHA BUT LOOK AT BARNY'S FACE!

Okay. i shall post already.

The one, the only, THE MINIBEAN!

Heh.