The Sudden Outburst.

Hmph. I realise that inspiration for writing in my blog only comes when i'm intensely happy or acutely sad. Like because right now i am neither, no steady flow of prose is flowing from my fingertips, no exploding ideas make their way onto the computer screen. I blame this watered-down feeling to my five "cheer-inspiring" exams. Its spoiling my perfect Christmas picture too. Grumph. Oh dear. I realise that my past few posts have been whiny, angst-ridden, ungrateful ones. I shall now leave those behind and concentrate on happy events. Somehow i tend to focus on things that are unfavourable, and that blinds me to the happy, light-hearted experiences i've had. Not so good. I went for cell group today! I'm glad. These people are so nice. Also, if Jennifer had not asked me to meet her at William's Coffee Pub i wouldnt have found out that that place is so marvelous. As is the dark deluxe hot chocolate after a can-freeze-you-to-a-fossil walk there from residence. The Pub is just like a regular pub but selling coffee instead of beer, and without the stench of stale ciggarettes and presence of dodgy corners in which dogdy characters carry out their dodgy deeds. OHO. This reminds me of the line from Love Actually by the slutty girl who was out to bed her boss. "Full of dark corners for doing dark deeds." Yah. That was of no relavence whatsoever to cell group i know. Oh i also found out that Vida, my crazy (but then again most Africans are crazy) but nice neighbour in Linden Hall, goes to that same cell! I'm rather pleased! In cell we talked about being a woman of excellence. Proverbs 31:10 says a virtuous woman is hard to find; she is worth more than rubies. And virtuous actually means excellent. So God wants us to be not just of noble character, but to be excellent in whatever we do. Being excellent just means the best that you can possibly be, doing something to the best of your full ability. He's not interested in whether you are the topdog of your career, or the highest achiever in school. If you are, well and good. But rather, he is concerned only that you accomplished what you did by putting in your absolute best, be it a C or an A. I also know that i did not put in my absolute best into preparing for my exams, especially chem and bio. I know i can get at the very least an 85 for those exams if only i did excellently in preparing for them (which, duh, i didnt). So thats something for me to think about for the new year eh. Okay now. Its 3.15am and i'm definately wilting. Plus i have to pee. Ohoh! I talked to Nat Tang on msn just now. =) I love her. And also i have to say, I miss Olie a whole lot too. I feel like squishing her. =) And I'm sorry i'm not as close to her as i would like to be, and i'm not there to help her in her crazy teenage years. It makes me sad to think of it. Cos thats what sisters are for, really. And i really want to be there for her. AH MOI IF YOURE READING THIS, I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH OKAY?! AND I'M ALWAYS HERE IF YOU NEED ME!!! The end.